Simon's Blog

Things have not changed much. History repeats itself. We are still in the same state of affairs. There is no change but continuous repeat of the same old song. We thought we change the world or we thought we have made the world a better place. Question, have we? How do we determine that? How do we know that things have changed for the better? There is no aim or guidelines to this. It is just the same. You want change? Think REVOLUTION. BIG SCALE REVOLUTION, you know what I mean.

It has been ages, since I last wrote here. Writing a post is rather simple compared to writing my thesis. There is no need to get supporting articles or statement to confirm that what I wrote is accurate and logical. A blog is where ideas flows out and got them written down as the writer pleases. When I am writing this post, I have not - in fact - finish my thesis. But under some unfortunate circumstances, I would have to defer the submission and look into other alternatives. I would need a break, an actual break from all work commitments.

Year 2013 has begun with some ups and downs. Something unexpected has happened. They are comprised of both good and bad. The lack of vision and aim has once plagued me. And now, the burden of the vision and aim has again plagued me. My only hope is having sufficient grace from God to walk down this path and follow His guidance till the end.

It is the last day of Year 2012 as I am writing this post. Things come and and go. Good or bad, we live with it and we learn from it. We would always want to make the right decision or think that we make the right decision. Real case is we aren't always making the right choices. And at times we will only see that the choice is flaw when the results are out. What do we do then? Cry over spill milk? Get up and move forward? Year 2013 would going to be big for me as there is at least one major thing coming up. And I do hope / wish that I would be able to get through it. Though life is hard, lets get tougher shall we?

2012 has been a fruitful (though the fruits are not plucked at the correct timing) and dishearting year (where the grass on the opposite could never always be green). There are few things to think through and new plans to be made. A time will come for the person to make decision and stay focus on it. A new year resolution is thought of. But writting them down on a piece of paper is never the style. What has happened can be lament upon but not to be drag down by it / them. We are to learn to move forward but never forget the lessons learned from it. In the end, we only live once. So lets live it to the fullest and may 2013 be a year for us to understand ourselves more.

It has been weeks. New work, new responsibilities. Longer distance travelling is required as compared to previous work. It seriously affects my strength and hamper my workout time. Even realize that I have started to take 2 dozes of multivitamin per day. Lack of concentration is spotted over my workout regime. Even if I am at home, my mind wanders around the place and would end up doing nothing productive. New semester has begun and I just made my way back to my first lesson (after missing the first 2 lessons). And there are lots to catch up. Assignments from previous semester to be look into. Re-assessment to be looked into as well. It is not going to be easy and I would need to myself together for this semester.

It is Oct 29. Morning was a rush for me, as I left my TnG card at home without realizing it till I reached the LRT station. I had to make a turn back to my house then again back to the station to catch my train. I have been having stiff neck for weeks. And it is annoying. My mind is contemplating to purchase a new pillow. But budget is bit low at my end for now. Last week had been bad for me. It is an anniversary that I would forget but not psychologically. It affected my mood, my attitude, my views over things. At least things are improving this morning and I do look forward to weekend as I have somthing planned for myself. Got a message via Jack'd. And found that the conversation is one-way. Luckily it has ended. If not, it would be wasting my time and effort (or even annoy me further).